me, a quarter, and a spinning brain

Today was my last day of Gyn clinical and I am making a big pot of soup, preparing to hibernate until December 20th when exams are over.

The semester simultaneously feels like it is winding down - and gearing up. We have 4 exams next week - one each day - and the preparation feels both overwheming and underwheming. Underwhelming in the sense that I am not excited about it - and overwhelming in the typical, I'm about to take four big tests, kind of way. My brain is spinning, and not so articulate, but I will try to eek out a bit before hitting the books.

I put in my first IUD today. To those of you not in midwifery school(which means everyone who reads this as I have not gone public yet) and are not doctors (who put central lines in on the regular, and other fun things) putting in an IUD is a pretty big deal. Perhaps it won't be on the 4th or 5th - but the first time is a make-the-palms-sweaty kind of moment. It entails tenaculums (think: big huge pinchers. ouch), betadine, some pulling, some ouchieness, some measuring of the uterus, and some chutzpa. (wow, that didn't get a red underline, I can't believe I spelled chutzpa correctly on the first try). My victim, er-um, patient, was an adorable 19 year old girl who just delivered her first baby 6 weeks ago. She prepped correctly with a bunch of ibuprofen, and seemed to do well. If she had been yelling, I would have been yelling, and then it might not have been so smooth...

That was my first patient of the day - and the rest, as if a gift, were all happy cases as well. No "I slept with 6 men and have some nasty critters and huge heap of medical problems" kind of patients. I saw a grinning 18 year old with a doting boyfriend at one of their last prenatal exams, I saw a 62 year old woman with no real complaints except constipation (yeah! I know what to say about that), and some other benign cases that all blend into one...

So the first semester, 1/4, of my clinical experience is now finished. I do not feel like 1/4 midwife yet - or, well, perhaps I do.

Yes, 1/4 done is exactly where I am - and when exams are over, being 1/3 done with coursework will feel just fantastic.