It's not what you hear on NPR

While there are days that pass that leave me feeling strung out and overwhelmed, the past few weeks have not. Our 'census' as they say, has been low- meaning that our floor is not full. We have a maximum capacity to care for 18 patients - but last night we had only six.

From a nursing perspective - this translates into two things: 1. an easy night, in which we are able to truly care for our patients and not just make sure drugs arrive on time or 2. a phone call, an hour or so before we wake to go into work to ask if we want to stay home- take 'benefit time'.

This is a piece of working that I have never experienced before, and is rubbing me the wrong way. While I don't want to use up all of my vacation time on unexpected days off, I feel useless going in when there are 3 nurses for 6 patients. It leaves me feeling not-needed, which is a slimy feeling.

I worked this Saturday - which followed the week's trend. I started the day caring for 4 patients (my maximum is five on a day and six on a night) but sent one cute old man, all wrapped in blankets, to a rehabilitation floor, and sent one young Arabic man on his way, home with a prescription for percocet and a sheet of instructions. By 3pm I was left with only two patients. One man, hospitalized for the um-teenth time for a chronic infection of his sweat glands (yes, sweat glans appear in the most inconvenient places) seemed to catch on to how the day was going as I once again appeared in his room to check in: "Are you having a slow day? Because no one has ever seen me so much in one day?" I sayed calm. "No, this is just the way I practice nursing. I'm attentive." Ok, so part truth, part lie.

Meanwhile, WBUR, our local NPR station has run a 3 part series on "The Nursing Shortage: Inside out" - In it, they describe the multifaceted problems facing the nursing profession, not the least of which is overwhelmed nurses with 8 patients, feeling that there practice is unsafe. They shared the statistic that a patient who is cared for by a nurse that has 8 patients is 30% more likely to die than a patient who is cared for by a nurse with 4. It is a piece worth listening to:

http://www.insideout.org/documentaries/nursingshortage/index.asp

I suppose rather that get upset that the floor is slow at the moment, I should be grateful that I can give my patients what they deserve throughout the day - I am able to not be a drug pusher and wound binder, but a real nurse. The Florence Nightengale way.